this site started out as a fun way to get me writing again. and it worked. mission accomplished. so now what?

i don't want to keep writing just for the sake of writing. i could do that on a piece of paper and save myself the trouble of downloading photos, linking, and obsessing over grammar. but i've never been successful with journaling. there's something about publishing online that motivates me. frees me up. makes my writing feel slightly less pointless.

i know for certain that there are several things i do not want to do anymore: be catty just for the sake of cattiness (i erased the entries that weren't genuine, just genuinely snarky); preach to the choir re: politics (i think we all know we hate bush, and other sites do a much better job of making the case against him than i can... although if i see something i can't help but share, i certainly will); obsess over comments people make and change what i write based on that (so i've taken the comments away... perhaps temporarily. but i think for good).

i want to write about my analysis and about applying to (and hopefully attending) usc and medical school. chronicling a progression from the person i am right now to the person i hope to become.

and i don't want this blog to be a dirty little secret anymore. all are welcome. the only thing i ask is that if you're a friend of mine you don't bring up sensitive blog entries in inappropriate settings. i'm going to write as honestly as i can, and hopefully you can appreciate how difficult that is.

and i'm still going to be all lower-case. not a style choice... just makes typing easier.