I was so happy with chemistry at the beginning of the semester. Everything about it seemed fascinating. Not anymore. It seduced me with its grand ideas and simple beauty... and now I'm stuck in its soul-numbing minutiae.

Lewis Dot Structures are fun. I've got no problem with G.N. Lewis and his dots. It's just little shit that keeps tripping me up; I call a molecule "pyramidal" and the book calls it "square pyramidal." I just can't seem to get everything right.

I want to kill myself.

Studying chemistry also makes me really horny. I have all kinds of dirty thoughts during lecture and while I'm studying in the library. It's probably because I'm so bored; but I think it could also be due to the fact that chemistry is really fucking me right now. I feel totally powerless when I'm studying it. It turns me into a confused submissive ("Why are you doing this to me? Ouch. Jesus... Why'd you stop?").