Decision Pending
Should I go to this biology class today? I really don't want to. I was only doing it for UCLA, and now that they've rejected me there's really no point. Right? UCSD and UCI would both like me to take that class, though. But I don't want to live in San Diego or Irvine. I really don't. Drew says I could commute to Irvine, but blech. No thanks.
So I don't have to go to class today, right? Are we all agreed on that?
Well then what am I supposed to do? Fuck I'm so tired of this process. I want a paycheck again. Please, God, let me find some fun part-time job that'll take care of my internet, phone, cable and car insurance bills. Bills which I've somehow managed to keep paying for the past two years (car insurance occasionally being optional, of course).
Having a conversation with Drew about this stuff is really tough. It brings up so many problems, complications, anxieties: Where will we live? Where will he work? How will we get there with all our stuff and our dog? How long before classes start should we start looking for a place? When should he quit his current job? What if I get into UCI? Isn't the tuition so much less? Shouldn't I stay in this biology class just in case?
It goes around and around and around and there's never any resolution. I just want it to be over.
In my heart, a decision has already been made. I'm ready to move. Until now, the only caveat was "unless UCLA comes calling." Now I feel like we're just grasping at straws with this whole UCSD/UCI business. It's hard to deny the fact that a state school would be a hell of a lot cheaper, though. I just feel that it's not going to happen with these schools. No one I know has gotten into a UC this year . There's just about a million too many applicants.
This is what I've been looking at online nearly every single day for the past three months:
UCSD
Application Received: 08 / 21 / 2006
Secondary Application Complete: 11 / 22 / 2006
Invited for Interview:
Hold for Interview: 12 / 07 / 2006
Final Decision Letter Sent: --
UCI
AMCAS Application Received: 7/7/2006
Secondary Application Awarded: 10/16/2006
Secondary Application Submitted: 10/23/2006
Secondary Application Payment Received: 10/24/2006
Letters of Recommendation Complete: 9/26/2006
Application Complete: 10/27/2006
Interview Status: Decision Pending
Admission Status:
Every day. It never changes. "Decision Pending." What does that mean? Should I go to biology today, UCI?
If I were single I wouldn't worry about these schools. But when I'm single and don't have anyone to answer to I don't necessarily make the best decisions for myself. The fact is that student debt needs to be a factor in this decision. Still, I should be more excited about the prospect of going to these schools. I'm not excited about them at all. And it is March already, which is pretty late in the med-school-application game.
I'm not going to biology today.
Right?
So I don't have to go to class today, right? Are we all agreed on that?
Well then what am I supposed to do? Fuck I'm so tired of this process. I want a paycheck again. Please, God, let me find some fun part-time job that'll take care of my internet, phone, cable and car insurance bills. Bills which I've somehow managed to keep paying for the past two years (car insurance occasionally being optional, of course).
Having a conversation with Drew about this stuff is really tough. It brings up so many problems, complications, anxieties: Where will we live? Where will he work? How will we get there with all our stuff and our dog? How long before classes start should we start looking for a place? When should he quit his current job? What if I get into UCI? Isn't the tuition so much less? Shouldn't I stay in this biology class just in case?
It goes around and around and around and there's never any resolution. I just want it to be over.
In my heart, a decision has already been made. I'm ready to move. Until now, the only caveat was "unless UCLA comes calling." Now I feel like we're just grasping at straws with this whole UCSD/UCI business. It's hard to deny the fact that a state school would be a hell of a lot cheaper, though. I just feel that it's not going to happen with these schools. No one I know has gotten into a UC this year . There's just about a million too many applicants.
This is what I've been looking at online nearly every single day for the past three months:
UCSD
Application Received: 08 / 21 / 2006
Secondary Application Complete: 11 / 22 / 2006
Invited for Interview:
Hold for Interview: 12 / 07 / 2006
Final Decision Letter Sent: --
UCI
AMCAS Application Received: 7/7/2006
Secondary Application Awarded: 10/16/2006
Secondary Application Submitted: 10/23/2006
Secondary Application Payment Received: 10/24/2006
Letters of Recommendation Complete: 9/26/2006
Application Complete: 10/27/2006
Interview Status: Decision Pending
Admission Status:
Every day. It never changes. "Decision Pending." What does that mean? Should I go to biology today, UCI?
If I were single I wouldn't worry about these schools. But when I'm single and don't have anyone to answer to I don't necessarily make the best decisions for myself. The fact is that student debt needs to be a factor in this decision. Still, I should be more excited about the prospect of going to these schools. I'm not excited about them at all. And it is March already, which is pretty late in the med-school-application game.
I'm not going to biology today.
Right?
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